Today was the first day that I actually screamed at them. I have to yell on a daily basis to be firm with them, but it's always controlled and concise. Not this time.
Everyone was making noise, no one was sharing, everyone trying to get my attention at the same time, putting things in their mouths, eating 5 day old marshmallows that were glued to paper as part of a math lesson, breaking things..... and then, the New Girl stood straight up, on the rocking chair.
And I flipped out. And right at that instant I wanted to scream and cry at the same time. WHY CAN'T THEY JUST LISTEN TO ME??????
I never want to scream at them again... but it was the end of the day and I was sick of it and just like snapped. Luckily no one else was in the room with me at the time to witness such an embarrassing loss of control on my part.
Thursday is Yom Kippur, Monday Columbus Day.... Thursday Yom Kippur, Monday Columbus Day.... it's my current mantra. PLEASE BE GOOD TOMORROW CHILDREN.